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My mom (and my sister) said that both baby Stan and Ford are adorable but Ford is cuter and she likes him better and I think my heart is shattered.
This post is dedicated to my favorite kid Stanley panels:










My mom didn’t even like him when I showed the one where he murders those two kids 😭😭😭 that’s the best part!!!
#gravity falls#stanley pines#stanford pines#I just wanna hold him and tell him he’s wonderful and creative and amazing#he’s trying his best#hes just a baby HES JUST A BABY#she doesn’t like that he’s a con man but MAYBE he wouldn’t have become a con man if he had a better support group 😤😤😤#I mean c’mon this kid had practically NO ONE#the only one there for him was his brother#and he was always over shadowed by his brother#everything he did in comparison wasn’t enough#and so yeah he takes shortcuts to catch up and then all he knows to do is lie and cheat because anything else he tried to do got shot down#HE WANTED TO DRAW COMICS DAMNIT#and really he was also pretty skilled in crafting! like foot bot and the boat he built with his brother#he probably just didn’t realize that that was impressive because of course it wasn’t his brother was doing things ten times cooler#YOU GUYS WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HIM THE WAY I DO#😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#AND THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY CHILDHOOD#WHERE I WAS *ALSO* OVER SHADOWED BY MY SIBLING AND FELT THAT I WAS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH#AND I’D GET IN TROUBLE FOR SHIT I DIDNT DO#AND WAS CONSIDERED THE SCREW UP#THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THAT.#SHUT UP.
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As usual I read your tags always and so you said Apollo did not ask for resurrection of Asclepius and Hyacinthus so i just wanted to share this. About Asclepius death I read it on theoi.com, that earlier authors don't make him resurrect as a god but that's a later development mentioned only by Roman authors like Cicero, Hyginus and Ovid. But still Apollo has a role in Ovid's version
Ovid, Fasti 6. 735 ff (trans.Boyle) (Roman poetry C1st B.C. to C1st A.D.) : Clymenus [Haides] and Clotho resent the threads of life respun and death's royal rights diminished. Jove [Zeus] feared the precedent and aimed his thunderbolt at the man who employed excessive art. Phoebus [Apollon], you whined. He is a god; smile at your father, who, for your sake, undoes his prohibitions [i.e. when he obtains immortality for Asklepios].
So here it is actually because of Apollo the decision was taken to resurrect him as god. And with Hyacinthus, I don't think I've read about Artemis playing the primary role. I know in Sparta there was a picture of Artemis, Athena and Aphrodite carrying Hyacinthus and his sister to heaven.
This is not on theoi.com but I saw on Tumblr it's from Dionysiaca by Nonnus
Second, my lord Oiagros wove a winding lay, as the father of Orpheus who has the Muse his boon companion. Only a couple of verses he sang, a ditty of Phoibos, clearspoken in few words after some Amyclaian style: Apollo brought to life again his longhaired Hyacinthos: Staphylos will be made to live for aye by Dionysos.
So since he is singing inspired by amyclean stories it probably means in that place it was believed Apollo was the one to bring back his lover to life.
Apollo as god of order was very important so i think it shows how special these people (and admetus too) were to him that he decided to go against the order for them 🥺
ANON!! Shakes you like a bottle of ramune!! BELOVED ANON!!!!! I'm littering your face with kisses, I'm anointing you with olive oil and honey - you absolutely made my night with this because, not only did I get the pure serotonin shot of having someone interact with my tags (yippee, wahoo!!) I also got to have that wonderful feeling of "oh wow, have I misunderstood something that was integral to my understanding of this myth/figure this whole time or is this a case of interpretational differences?" which is imo vital for my aims and interests as someone who enjoys mythological content and literature.
I'll preface my response with this: Hyacinthus is by far the hardest of these to get accounts for because his revival itself, as you very astutely point out, is generally accounted for in painting/ritual format which muddies the waters on who interceded for what. I wasn't actually familiar with that passage from the Argonautica - and certainly didn't remember it so thank you very much for bringing it to my attention!
That said, what I've come to understand, both about Hyacinthus and about Asclepius is that in the accounts of their deaths, Apollo's position is startlingly clear.
For Hyacinthus, it is established time and again that Apollo would have sacrificed everything for him - his status, his power, his very own immortality and divinity. Ovid writes that Apollo would have installed him as a god if only he had the time:
(Ovid. Metamorphoses. Book X. trans. Johnston)
Many other writers too speak of how Apollo abandoned his lyre and his seat at Delphi to spend his days with Hyacinthus, but they also all agree that when it came to his death - he was powerless. Ovid gives that graphic account of Apollo's desperation as he tries all his healing arts to save him to no avail:
(Ovid, Metamorphoses Book X. Apollo me boy, methinks him dead. trans Johnston)
Bion, in one of his fragments, writes that Apollo was "dumb" upon seeing Hyacinthus' agony:
(Bion, The Bucolic Poets. Fragment XI. trans Edmonds)
Even Nonnus in the Dionysiaca speaks constantly of Apollo's helplessness in the face of Hyacinthus' fate where he writes that the god still shivers if a westward wind blows upon an iris:
and when Zephyros breathed through the flowery garden, Apollo turned a quick eye upon his young darling, his yearning never satisfied; if he saw the plant beaten by the breezes, he remembered the quoit, and trembled for fear the wind, so jealous once about the boy, might hate him even in a leaf...
(Nonnus, Dionysiaca, Book 3. trans Rouse)
And the point here is just that - Apollo, at least as far as I've read, cannot avert someone's death. He simply can't. Once they're already dead - once Fate has cut their string - all Apollo's power is gone and he can do nothing no matter how much he wants to. And this is, as far as I know, supported with the accounts of Asclepius as well!
Since you specifically brought up Ovid's account, I'll also stick only to Ovid's account but in Metamorphoses when we get Ovid's version of Coronis' demise, he writes that Apollo intensely and immediately regrets slaughtering Coronis. He regrets it so intensely that he, like he does with Hyacinthus, does his best to resuscitate her:
(Ovid, Metamorphoses Book Two. Apollo's regret)
And like Hyacinthus, when it becomes clear that what has happened cannot be undone, Apollo wails:
(Ovid, Metamorphoses Book Two. Apollo wept.)
Unlike his mother, Asclepius in her womb had not yet died and so, with the last of Apollo's strength, he does manage, at least, to save him.
(Ovid, Metamorphoses Book Two. Apollo puts the 'tearing out' in Asclepius.)
But it goes further than even that because Ocyrhoe, Chiron's daughter, a prophetess who unduly gained the ability to directly proclaim the secrets of the Fates, upon seeing the baby Asclepius, immediately prophesies his glory, his inevitable death and then his fated ascension:
(Ovid. Metamorphoses, Book Two. Ocyrhoe's prophecy. trans Johnston)
Before she too succumbs to her hubris and is transformed by the Fates into a horse so she can no longer speak secrets that aren't hers to share.
These things ultimately are important because it establishes two very important things: 1) Apollo can't do anything in the face of the ultimate Fate of mortals, which is, of course, death and 2) even when Apollo is Actively Devastated, regretful, yearning, mournful, guilty or some unholy combination of all of the above, when someone is dead, he accepts that they are gone. Even if he is devastated by it, even if he'll cry all the rest of his days about it - if they're dead? Apollo lets them go. In Fasti, when Zeus brings Asclepius back, he does not say Apollo asked him to - Zeus, or well, in this case Jove, brings Asclepius back because he wants Apollo to stop being mad at him.
(Ovid, Fasti VI. Apollo please come home your father misses you. trans. A.S Kline)
Even Boyle's translation which you used above in your findings hints that Zeus made Asclepius a god because he wanted Apollo to stop grieving. (i.e 'smile at your father', 'for your sake [he] undoes his prohibitions')
And like, Apollo was deeply upset by Asclepius' death - apart from killing the Cyclops in anger, in book 4 of the Argonautica, Apollonius writes that the Celts believe the stream of Eridanus to be the tears Apollo shed over the death of Asclepius when he left for Hyperborea after being chastised by Zeus for killing his Cyclops:
But the Celts have attached this story to them, that these are the tears of Leto's son, Apollo, that are borne along by the eddies, the countless tears that he shed aforetime when he came to the sacred race of the Hyperboreans and left shining heaven at the chiding of his father, being in wrath concerning his son whom divine Coronis bare in bright Lacereia at the mouth of Amyrus.
It all paints a very clear picture to me. Apollo did not ask for either of them to be brought back. Though bringing them back certainly pleased and delighted him, they are actions of other gods who are moved by Apollo's grief and mourning and seek to mollify him. Him not asking doesn't mean he didn't want them back which I think is a very important distinction by the by, but it simply means that Apollo knows the natural order of things and, even if it hurts, he isn't going to press his luck about it.
Which, of course, brings us to Admetus. And I'm really not going to overcomplicate this, Admetus is different because, very vitally, Admetus is not dead. Apollo can't do a thing once Fate has been carried out and Death has claimed a mortal but you know what he absolutely can do? Bargain like hell with the Fates before that point of inevitability. And that's what he does, ultimately for Admetus and Alcestis. He sought to prolong Admetus' life, not revive him from death or absolve him from death altogether and even after getting the Fates drunk, he's still only able to organise a sacrifice - a life for a life - something completely contingent on whether some other mortal would be willing to die in Admetus' place and not at all controllable by Apollo's own power.
All of these things, I think come back to that point you made - that Apollo's place as a god of order is very important and therefore these people are very special to him if it means he's willing to go against that order but, I also wish to challenge that opinion if you'd let me. Apollo's place as a god of order is very important and therefore, I would argue, that it is even more important that it is shown that he does not break the divine order, especially for the people that mean the most to him. The original context of my comments which started this conversation were on this lovely, lovely post by @hyacinthusmemorial which contemplated upon Asclepius from the perspective of an Emergency Medical personnel and included, in their tags, the very poignant lines "there's something about Apollo letting go when Asclepius couldn't that eats my heart away" and "you do what you can, you do your best, but you don't ever reach too far" and I think that's perfectly embodied with the Apollo-Asclepius dichotomy. Apollo grieves. He wails, he cries, he does his best each and every time to save that which is precious to him but he does not curse their nature, he does not resent that they are human and ultimately, he accepts that that which is mortal must inevitably die. There is nothing that so saliently proves that those who uphold rules are also their most staunch followers - if Apollo wants to delight in his place as Fate's mouthpiece, he cannot undo Fate. And, if even the god of healing and order himself cannot undo death, what right does Asclepius, mortal as he is, talented as he is, have to disrespect it?
The beauty of these stories isn't that Apollo loved them enough to bring them back. The beauty is that Apollo loved them enough to let them go.
#this is such a long ass post oh my god#ginger answers asks#This totally got away from me but I AM PASSIONATE ABOUT THIS AAAA#Anon beloved anon I hope you don't take this as me shutting you down or anything because that really isn't what I'm trying to do#I'm definitely going to dig more into the exactness of 'who petitioned for Hyacinthus to be revived actually?"#I always stuck to the belief that it was Artemis because of the depictions of his revival + his procession is usually devoid of Apollo#I know some renaissance paintings have him and Apollo reuniting but that's usually In The Heavens y'know#I genuinely couldn't think of any accounts that have Apollo Asking for anyone to be revived#Apollo does intercede sometimes but that's usually for immortals like Prometheus#Or even when he's left to preside over Zagreus' revival and repair in orphic tradition#Concerning Asclepius there's like a ton to talk about tbh#There's the fact that in some writings (in quite a lot actually) the reason Asclepius was killed wasn't necessarily that he brought someone#back - it was that he accepted money for it#Pindar wrote about it and Plato talks about how if Asclepius really did accept gold for a miracle then he was never a son of Apollo#It's a whole thing really#I think it's very important that it's Asclepius in his mortal folly that tests the boundaries of life and death tbh#The romanticisation of going to any length to bring back a loved one is nice and all#But sometimes the kindest and most lovely thing you can do for someone is to accept it#Just accept that they're gone - accept that there was nothing that could be done and even if the grief is heavy - keep living#Maybe we won't all get our lost loves back#But there are definitely always more people worth loving if you just live long enough to find them#apollo#asclepius#zeus#admetus#greek mythology#ovid#oh my god so much ovid#hyacinthus#coronis
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the trajectory of understanding someones politics from like two things they say is kind of crazy. iskalls video declaring he will be settling this in the court of law, claiming everyone was being malicious and then deleting any comments questioning him, all point to what kind of audience and community he wants to foster bc all the comments are just misogynistic chuds who are cheering him on. have fun with your dudebro libertarian audience man. when is your right wing grift gonna start.
#idek what im trying to say in this post but the entire video left a bad taste in my mouth#doing the textbook thing after being cancelled/outed as a predator which is to say everyone hates me#and bc the audience that wouldnt tolerate this behaviour is gone#now you have an echo chamber of yes men#i mean this also doesnt reflect well onto the hermits but i know they did this to save their own ass#bc they have a family friendly image they needed this shut down quick#theres a sad boyz episode where they talk abt this where its like. you should at least talk it out bc when ppl get cancelled#they end up in these environments w ppl (usually also right wing wow) who just say you did nothing wrong sir#ala elon fanboy#ok this is getting incoherent im jsut saying theres gonna be right wing turn 100%
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never made like an organized post about it but! i do have an inprnt shop now!!
i've only added a few that people have either asked for or that i thought were Good Enough to make the initial cut. but im always happy to add more if there's like, desire for any in particular!
thats basically it! some other additional info about a couple of the pieces on there below cut that isn't. super important. hope you enjoy :3
the little miro stars were the first thing i made and the Whole Reason i made the shop initially (so i could buy them. lol) BUT there is some like. warnings re:them
a. the one i bought was the alone guy and it is. big. shes large. picture will be attached below (theyre more saturated irl). hence why i made the smaller versions in one sticker! because u can't choose sizes for stickers! the only annoying part of that is...
b. theyre not like. precut. i tried to upload the transparent version so that hopefully it Would Be but. is not. so if you do get those you do have to manually cut them out.,.. as u can probably tell by my hack job LOLL
#scheduled post if i did not fuck that up!!#i wish i could upload some of the graphic editing type stuff ive done but im Worried abt my shit getting shut down bc theyre mostly getty..#so. whatever. we move#obviously no pressure to buy anything.... she costs me nothing to have up.... just thought itd be cute + fun#yap yap yapping
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Am I the only person who has never decorated any space they’ve ever lived in in the almost 24 years they’ve been on this Earth?
#like idk I might’ve been banned from decorating my room#or id just get shut down by my parents#and when I asked if we could buy decor I got called ungrateful#I was afraid of doing it wrong in boarding school so I had nothing#and I barely did anything in college#like how do you know how to decorate#not to be dramatic but I feel like I’m missing a key part of existence#uchiha-gaeshi overshares#txt
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i guess this is a vent? idk I'm talk to myself some is all
the thing ab CAB is she will literally experience us having coughing fits every couple of hours overnight, waking up drowsy and dizzy with a sore throat, clutching her stomach as the sick affects the tummy and also the pre-existing GI issues, and brain empty bc sick brain fog + grief brain fog + already have brain problems. and her ass will still try to take over and be like NO WE'RE OKAY EVERYTHINGS OKAY LETS GO TO WORK OKIE DOKIE LETS GO YOU'RE LETTING EVERYONE DOWN (< who i have no idea btw. everyone in my life is telling me to stay home & rest. probably dad cus he doesnt believe in covid but he also doesnt mean shit anymore in our lives bby I promise) LETS GO. like girl. we literally cant even stand without getting dizzy and we got terrible sleep last night AND our boss is letting us "wfh" instead of exhausting our eto. could you be any more .... oh god word dont elude me now ..... whatever. anyway. CAB shut the fuck up challenge
#bunny rambles#i know she started as a way to protect me mentally at work i know i know#i know she exists bc my dad treated us like future employees/interview candidates and not entirely as people#i know she just wants to protect me but also girl shut the fuck up we have COVID if there was ever a time to rest its now#why are you even awake! you dont need to be! she literally freaked out immediately when waking up today and demanded we take a covid test#which like. i have enough of but also ofc nothing's changed cus we're still sick!! but i can smell and taste just a little more everyday and#she's taking that alone as a sign of faking being sick like GIRL CHILL ITS NOT THAT SERIOUS we can wfh today pls#I'll even indulge u with tasks just pls girl take a fuckin nap i beg u#on a funnier note: yesterday i was talking to my therapist ab this bitch and yk the fact that when things are hard in my life i dissociate#more/less with Responsibilities & i gave examples of a few times in the past i literally didnt realize there was Actual Harm happening to/in#my body until i literally Snapped out of the dissociation (like my appendix nearly bursting. or when i put the blade thru my kneecap at my#last job and str8 up didnt know i was gushing blood until i peed an indeterminate am of time later)#and i was comparing the sensations of my body and explaining between the grief & sick i Literally dont know where my creatures are bc#everything is dampened for Me but also i KNOW they're coming out bc i cant remember some days at work last week/breakdowns ive had but cant#remember the inside only the sobbing coming down this past week. and also we were IDing the fact that 16 (a conglomerate of my teen years)#is like. Here. and maybe me constantly saying “i feel like 16” when im in this distressed headspace is more of a sign that like. i should#explore and listen to those parts (and oooh boy did they talk yesterday) and um. wait there was a point#OH RIGHT my therapist was like “you know. you use different pronouns for your parts” and i honestly didnt realize that#but i Was able to give her a mapping of when every name in my name pile came into existence/was a primary name#and as i/16 was mapping the name pile (16 did most and then u could tell where 16 wasnt as sure bc it was the 21+ names pile which is#complicated but of 16 dont know that. not the point) um anyway. this is a very long crazy sounding ramble#im just talking to myself mostly but if u read this then thanks for listening to me ramble ig
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sometimes you need to stoop down to other peoples' level
#mom didn't call at all in all day that was already the first red flag#and when i did call her she sounded so down#no first of all now i see where i get the issue of opening up and talking from like i asked her and all she admitted was yeah she cried#today like hello??? give me names tell me what happened fully just tell me something because i can and will be shameless enough to drag any#adult in this house been there done that before will do it again and no idc what they say to me atp nothing no matter how deep real will cu#me so just tell me no??? this pisses me off so much because everytime i will get to know through other people or it's too late#reason? you shouldn't get involved. well. too bad. and what is this with tu apna khayal rakh and make your career and they'll shut up like#yaar aap itne andhe toh ho nahi idhar mene apki life ke bits and pieces dekhi hai aur mujhe khud itna pata hai ki ye kabhi nahi sudharne#wale like i get it emotional weakness etcetc but oh my god you just have to say the truth itni lambi list hai kuch bhi bol diya karo na wha#is this nahi hum barre hai itne neeche nahi gir sakte bhai thik hai khud nahi kuch karo mujhe toh karne do na?????#maina jaake apna sar phor lungi sachi kya chutiyap faila rakha hai#mine
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hey guys so uh!! funny story!! i was in the hospital 😭 so i’m sorry for being mia all i did was sleep and throw up so…</3 i’m still not that well so i’ll get back to asks, requests and dms in the next few days ☹️🫶🏻 BUT HEY IM NOT DEAD YET!! yippie!!
#maise’s mumbles !#this is awks kinda but yeah.#VERY on brand for me that the first thing i do im the new year is get hospitalised#first thing i did getting home was watching the asy ep i missed ngl#and then i wished i was back in the hospital bc ollie is fifth 😍#FUCKING FIFTH#i’m getting weak thinking abt it i can’t do this#but yeah i’m still going thru it but they sent me home bc nothing really is wrong with me like all my blood levels and stuff were fine so#they don’t know what’s wrong w me 😭#it’s my body’s reaction to ollie at fifth mhm mhm#my body knew before the world did and just decided to shut down
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oh so actually he knew what he did was wrong because he complained about the same thing happening to him recently AND identified the correct course of action about the situation! so you chose to do this to me knowing it was wrong to do to someone. awesome. any trace of any past respect for you is gone and if my friends ask me i will simply tell them the truth
#to have the fucking audacity#to complain about behavior you so eagerly dish to others#this is a real vague because wow dude scum ass move#i helped you. i had nothing and i was the ONLY one who helped. fuck you for real#keep the fucking change. i cared then. you're not coming back anywhere close to me.#not even MENTIONING that it outright lied to me before this anyways. you really did not care#entire reconnect was a fucking farce from you. thanks.#your public thoughts are very revealing to just how much you lied to me#not even the decency of saying you just didnt want to reconnect when i would have been the most understanding guy in the universe about it.#were you just playing with me. was i a toy. did you have fun#its not like i can ask. someone else shut down that avenue. I wonder who#im not going on some campaign of revenge or whatever. im leaving it here. bye. at least I know you both never cared now#phlyaros' nonsense
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#ok I’m so proud of myself bc this involves finance which is something I avoid at all costs but like I did it!!#my work failed to process my check which I should have received yesterday. I’m now expected to get it next week#and part of growing up poor is like. idk. this learned helplessness or defeatist attitude with money problems#like ohh it’s my bad I should’ve had more savings to cover waiting an extra week or longer for my monthly check#and historically I just shut down and panic while doing nothing bc this is my biggest possible stressor to come across#but!!! being around rich people? I’ve learned they negotiate!! and demand to not be inconvenienced!!#my work was like ehh I’m sorry too bad so sad about your check and I was like actually no#I explained how this impacts my ability to pay rent. my credit score. how they didn’t inform me in time to stop bill autopay#and asked what their detailed plan is to fix this#and within an hour admin was scrambling. four different people emailed me apologizing for the mix up#and they worked it out with finance to get me a $2000 loan to get me by until the check hits#but I was like actually no. I won’t be paying interest on this because I shouldn’t be penalized for your error#and so they GOT RID OF INTEREST#0% interest cash advance essentially that covers all my bills#I picked up the physical check for the 2k today so it’s legit thank god#I thanked everyone involved and remained extremely polite#and they said if there’s any other questions you have please let us know#so I was like actually you know what lmao#I explained that I’ve incurred fees for overdrafts and returned items due to bill autopay that I couldn’t cancel due to them informing me#basically the day of my check being late#and so I specifically said I’ve incurred $270 in fees at this point as a result of your error and I shouldn’t be expected to pay this.#and!! they just said… okay!!! I just got an email that they’ve processed a secondary check for $270!!#so like?!?! what?!?! is this what life is like when you don’t shy away from discussing money?!#im genuinely shocked. this is a life lesson. I never would have imagined this outcome#thank god I decided to not take it lying down
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yall the pjsk servers just shut down for the anniversary
say a final goodbye to the old uid

also happy 4 years pjsk 🎉🎉🎉
#pjsk#project sekai colorful stage#hastune miku colorful stage#yall i was trying to get like a ton of video footage of the old uid to save#but didnt relize the sevres would shut down at the time they did#so now i just have a 12 min video of the overworld and nothing else#rippppp#idk#but hay#the new stuff looks fun#idk when the severs will be back tho#lol#no one who follows me cares about this game lol#but im talking about it anyway#rip old uid#you will probably not be missed
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i am literally so hungry and yet i am like paralyzed in my seat. why can't i get up and go get food. why am i just sitting here while my stomach wallows in agony. i feel ill. jay be normal
#qktalks#be normal.#me when i can't take care of myself ??? girl just get up and go nothing is stopping u (it feels like the world is stopping me)#anyway sorry this started off as a weird vent post or whatever. u guys know what i miss? animal jam#i miss that game so much#i also played a lot of happy pets on facebook when i was little i've been genuinely considering making a new facebook just to play it again#but is it worth it. no. no is the answer to that#i remember when i played animal jam back when i was little and i finally got that one headdress accessory that was the craze back then#and my best friend at the time got so jealous abt it that they hacked into my account while i was asleep and traded it w their own account#and the next day i was like ''where did all my stuff go'' and they were like ''haha idk'' while wearing my fucking outfit#honestly that's rly hilarious. the fucking audacity#little me wasn't ballsy enough to go ''uhm i think the fuck not'' i was like just ''oh ......... okay :(''#but u bet ur ass if i was as confident back then as i am now ? i woulda maimed them#yes <3 over a video game. that's what kids do didn't u know <3#god i do miss happy pets tho#that game was so fun and silly. i deleted my facebook tho all my houses upon houses of pets r gone#u could have glowing tigers!!!!!#JUST GOOGLED HAPPY PETS THE GAME GOT SHUT DOWN . OHTHIS IS HORRIBLE#will be mourning this game all night. will be crying in the shower over it#<- acting like she's not in a depressive spiral and will absolutely NOT be showering#im holding a roblox funeral for happy pets who wants to join [has never once played roblox]#anyway weird topic-less rant over goodnight <3 to all my new followers yes i am slightly strange
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Can people stop the "Don't call yourself a feminist if-" crap? Y'all still believe in the blatant lies of that movement and ideology?
#txt#that shit has been shady from day one even if some of the people involved throughout the years had good intentions#i'm sorry but women need to stop thinking this movement has ever been for them. it wasn't even created by women#also christ is literally there. you don't need that movement. christianity did that a looong time ago#“yeah but society was still patri-” shut the hell up with that. i don't want to hear it. y'all have no idea what a patriarchy is anymore#it's just evil men working together to keep women down. the world has never quite worked like that. are y'all this retarded?????#y'all are out here painting shit like a goddamn classic disney villain#the world and human civilization are incredibly complex multidimensional and gray. this isn't a black and white bs#this is the fucking problem with tumblr and people as a whole. nothing is balanced. it's either one extreme or the other#we humans tend to jump to extremes even though things are far more nuanced and complex#we live in a fallen world. this world is unfair but there's a chance at redemption#we can all be better#the problem with this ideology is that they always try to paint men as the natural enemies of women#it's the oppressor and oppressed dynamic#one is evil and the other one is good#this is a very black and white way of looking at humanity and it removes the humanity from both#i hate it because it heavily implies that women have no agency and shit just happens to them basically. nothing they do has an effect. it's#always someone else doing it. like y'all do realize women are the other half of humanity right????? you can't maintain a society without the#other#you'd have to be INSANE to subscribe to this kind of ideology
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#literally nothing i ever do is good enough for my father#today i woke up in a good mood and tried interacting w him and he was complaining that i didnt say good morning#which i did btw#and then he started ignoring me for like half an hour and i kept trying to talk to him#eventually he yelled at me to stop bothering him#which triggered me and made me go non verbal and i completely shut down#so during lunch i was Not speaking at all to anyone and then he yelled at me again for being quiet#which just made me want to cry even more#i hate it here why am i not good enough for him ever#im so tired of this#i hate going nonverbal cause he always yells at me for being quiet#but if i speak he get angry at me for speaking??????#like pick a struggle#anyways.#at least im going over to my aunt’s house to make brigadeiro#but my uncle is probably going to be there and he’s just as bad as my dad#hopefully he’s not home
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thinking forever about the huge gap in my education where in the place of the past perfect continuous tense there is only Uther's Troll Wife
#high school english classes were either spend Debating Csaba Bácsi or Not At All Subtly Not Paying Attention there was no inbetween#we just watched bbc merlin and we didnt even keep it down. sorry csaba bácsi#i did my előrehozott in year 10 i think so i didnt even have english classes after that#which resulted in my not talking to csaba bácsi basically ever again even though wed had a nice rapport going on before#like id see him in the corridors and id just have nothing to say to him even though you couldnt shut me up in his classes#(when i was in debate mode and not bbc merlin mode)#i hate that i have to be forced into talking to people thats not how the world works#there are less and less opportunities for me to mandatorily spend weeks with people before i have the courage to actually talk to them#let's give it up for language practice for giving me this last year i hope i can cruise by with the friends i made there this year too#my post#and before you ask yes once i overcome my shyness im unbearably obnoxious <3 im a functioning member of society
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guess who finally got to go to a therapist again today after losing their other one
ME!!!!!!!!!!!
#im so sorry that happened youre really strong#o get through it#afterwards i had to walk back to my mums which was around 20 mins#i just ended up playing fine by lemon demon on repeat to calm me down lmao i didnt have earbuds so i just played it out loud while walking#stayed at her work for the rest of the day helping her and got back home at dark#the appointment went well i think. i fumbled my words to an ungodly amount and couldnt think properly#i barely could keep eye contact and just ending looking all over the room and then just wall. ty wall. was just slumped in the chair adsfgh#it was weird having to tell someone about myself#and whats happened in my life#while i was talking i was just like damn huh that did actually happen to me#i guess ive just repressed a lot of stuff and then having to bring it all back up again and trying to explain it as well was just weird#like when i told her about some of the stuff that happened to me during school she was like etc and it was weird because i dont really see#t but i just feel like she shouldnt be saying that to me. i dont know it just feels weird. i dont see it as anything even though it is some#hing i guess. like when she asked about me self harming i just said how it is because i guess to me its just nothing. even though i know se#f harm is not good to me it kinda doesnt feel like anything. its just yeah i do/did. nothing of it i just yeah. i need to figure out how to#feel again. thinking and understanding as well i suppose.#okay skaluli shut up i dont care stop talking.
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